Taylor Swift Rereleases Fearless

Artwork by Michelle Dong, staff artist

By Laurel Reynolds

And you have just broken up with me. I’m Abigail and Taylor is crying with me after giving everything I had to a boy who changed his mind. The first time I heard this album I was seven and sang it to my best friend’s lime green walls. We danced around the pink radio and held onto the smallest, the most innocent loves of our lives. Now, I’m nineteen and driving 80 in a 60. I throw my champagne problems out my car window and try to embrace teenage heartbreak. I tell my friends how casually cruel you were, but I keep searching for you and your white horse from my apartment’s lobby. I know you’ll never show, so I throw myself at anyone who will give me attention. All I want is to be wanted again. Everything reminds me of you and I have cried my makeup off for the third day in a row. Your insincere apology after messaging every girl on Bumble keeps ringing in my head and I wonder if everything actually was my fault. I keep remembering when we kissed on the kitchen floor with a backdrop of Christmas lights. When you bought me a karaoke machine and I sang shitty rock music to you in a drive-through. When I hid on top of your washing machine and you carried me back to bed, laughing. When we were happy, and I wonder what changed. You used to hold me all night and now it’s two a.m. and I’m cursing your name. It’s two a.m. and I tell myself my love for you was fearless even though you wouldn’t, or couldn’t, love me back. That in every ugly Christmas sweater I picked out for you, every midnight takeout run, every night I slept in your bed, I loved you and gave you everything I had. And you have just broken up with me. Taylor Swift has just rereleased Fearless and I am letting go of the strongest love of my life. There are no pink radio or green walls. But there are the same songs and an old Toyota Camry and miles of freeways to get over you.

Lyrics from Fearless (Taylor’s Version)